Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Mom, Memories and Tears
Today, I am really missing my Mom. It is still so unbelievable that she won't be back in this life. That I can't pick up the phone and talk to her. That I won't feel her soft skin. In the physical realm, death is so permanent. I was just thinking about something while I was washing up some dishes. I had a strong urge to call her up. Then I end up letting tears fall into my dishwater. I have these moments and God is faithful to pour in His grace to walk me through them. I am thankful that I had a great Mom. I am thankful that she loved the Lord and I WILL see her again one day. I am thankful that I got to talk to her for an hour the day before she died. I am thankful that I got the bacterial meningitis last August, as she was here every day for almost a week to help care for me. That is the last time I saw her alive.
I preach this really often now, but I cannot tell you enough times.... Call your Mom, Dad, loved ones. Tell them you love them. Get that recipe that is only in their head that you have always meant to get. Ask those questions about family history that will be lost when they go on. Take the time to mend the wrongs. Tell them why they are special to you. If they are on your nerves a bit, remember, that I would do almost anything for my Mom to bug me right now. You will honestly miss that.
I will try and be more upbeat in my next entry. I just wanted to share my heart.
The first picture above is my parents arriving at their 50th wedding anniversary party. I love this picture because it really shows their relationship. They were in love, loved one another and enjoyed being together.
The second picture is my son Joshua and my Mom. That was taken at least 7 years ago, probably more like 9 years ago.
The last picture is my Mom opening up the clock my Dad got her for their 50th. This is "My Mom". This is her how she was in every day life. I love how she seems to look right at me.